After one month of consulting, I am not much closer to figuring out what I want to be when I grow up. I am fairly confident I want to create my own company… not because I want to make millions of dollars, not because I want to be my own boss (although those are perks I wouldn’t mind having) but because I truly believe I have the chops to do it. I consider me being self employed was a test, to see whether I would prevail or crash and burn under it all. So far, so good!
I feel like I have more creativity when working by myself, managing my own projects. I can work at my own pace, for how long I want, take as few or as many breaks as I want. I don’t have anyone breathing down my neck about deadlines, I am not getting lost in a sea of politics, and day to day annoyances are minimal. It’s nice to take a break from work to… work on a blog post! Lastly, it’s nice to stay home and not bother with the ridiculous amount of snow we’ve gotten here on Long Island.
It’s not like I don’t have deadlines and sometimes, they take me to working a lot of nights and weekends. You have to really work on the relationship with your clients, because they are providing you with work so you can make money. If you are sick or just not into the day, you HAVE to make up that work… there’s no sick days or vacations. You have to watch your money LIKE A HAWK… because you don’t get a check every two weeks. You have to make sure your computer is working at all times; there’s no IT department to replace your computer. Obviously, as with all important decisions in your life, there are a lot of huge pros and cons.
I decided to reflect on my success and my failures. As an aspiring leader/owner of a company, one thing you need to do is be positive but realistic. However, I’ve come up with a list of things that I’ve learned and accomplished unrelated to my profession in case this is all a really big failure:
- I’ve upgraded my home operation to be more secure and more backed up.
- I’ve learned how to manage my money better
- I’ve learned how to manage my time better
- I’ve become more organized
- I understand taxes a lot better
- I’ve learned how to express my opinion a lot better
- I’ve learned that sometimes the biggest failure you can have is the failure you didn’t have.
I am generally honest with myself and would admit if this wasn’t working for me. So far, I’m enjoying myself and recognize that over the next several months I need to make some big changes and advances. I hope I don’t burn out and lose sight as to what I want to accomplish, even if that hasn’t been truly defined yet.